Gaby Mail

Update

This took me a while to think;If you already notice, I'm getting increasingly anxious or mood swinging when i started playing Ant Legion after months of playing. Everytime i keep playing this game, some people that i wish to talk and hangout in game, gets bored, one of them screaming or announcing for 'quitting', 'not having fun', and dissapears forever or get's inactive more than 30 days. No warning, no communication, nothing but concentrate others things rather than this game, which it screw me over my real life habits of drawing, eating, normal task and makes me play more or drop interest.Again, doing my best to keep it in private... My irls notice my odd habits and got suspicious about my anxiety, and they told me: "Stop talking with 'strangers'.", and "Drop the game, they put you as zombie". Which i did, almost....I can't stop thinking about what have i done during a decade, even my info that i vaguely drop to know me a bit, and tell them millions of times: "No, i did not straight up give my phone number, not the direction, not my face, age, etc. I recognize this people behaviours at the start, and NONE OF THEM have a wish to be SUPER MALICIOUS. They're being super normal and too open about they lifes and willing to play, love my drawings, most of them that i talk to them are adults and don't take things seriously. I'm being careful". I settle my irls about this, took my decision to take a hiatus and reflect...All my thoughts just still echo my mind and says... "¿Que carajo estoy haciendo con mi vida?" "Quiero salir más, encontrar y ver mis compañeros por años intentando de hablar como si fuera una amiga" "Estoy atascado con este limbo de conocer gente que no son de mi país." "Deseo de ser un pasión pero cual identidad sería familiarizado? Todo es inspirado por el internet, videojuegos y televisión!!!" "Odio ser una persona diagnostico, quiero devolver mi vida, ser otra pasión!!"I did not want throw all the people i met for a decade out of the bus, especially lose you, i want everyone stay on communication just to reach out those people who they're around... im really sorry that i made everyone worry about me..For now on, I'll do my best to limit the social apps, and videogames, trying to keep my accounts up, change things, use the other account only for people who are interest at my drawings and willing to play videogames (worldwide). The other social account should be ONLY LOCALS, and that should be my real friends at the start.

(P.S: I take it down after i come back)